Same Boat
My wife filed for divorce about two weeks ago. I used to think the same things... I don't love her anymore, its not the same as it used to be, we have grown apart, blah, blah. Then, I realized- I HAVE BEEN PROTECTING MY DRINKING! I chose it over sitting with her on the couch. I chose it over spending time with her in general. I chose it over spending time with my kids. Over the last 6-7 years she would "harass" me about my drinking. It would make me despise her and make me "think" I do not want to even be in the same room with her. Well, I saw my 2 daughters for the 1st time in about 2 weeks Friday- for 3 hours. I get to see them Mondays and Fridays from 5-8pm. I look back and I see a loving wife trying to help me. A great mother to my kids. I She put up with a lot. She'd had enough. I quit 9-1. The fog has lifted and I see a beautiful woman that was good to me and was only trying to help me and our marriage. I was blind. I wanted a buzz. She wanted me. But, not the drunk me... I guess what I am trying to say, from experience, is our want/need for a drink completely blinds us from what is right in front of us. Get the blinders off and love her husband. He is not trying to make you feel guilty. He is just trying to live his vows- FOR BETTER OR FOR WORSE.