I learned a very specific lesson from every single relapse I have in my charge...
I'm unable to moderate at all.
One sip and all bets are off.
Perhaps you just needed to do a little more "field research" Soberjuly. That's not discounting the severity of this disease, and I'm sure glad you got out unscathed, but please, don't call yourself a "loser".
You came back right away. And that's no easy feat.
I think it's honorable and admirable that your honesty led you back to where you know the going gets good - sober.
