Klp and Anna, I appreciate your thoughts. It helps a lot.
I feel gripped by it all. And just so tired all of a sudden. It feels like I just want to give up trying.
So angry and disappointed and hurt. Angry with them and myself.
Anna, my husband is great. He helps me so much. Unfortunately, his family isn't a great blessing, lol. I've tried to love them, but I can't tolerate his mother. That's a whole story that I don't have the energy to deal with right now. She insulted me and I just haven't been able to be around her again. Maybe one day.