Back again. Starting Day 3 sober. I would have posted, but I've felt too messed up over the past couple days.
Something occurred to me...I think that the guy falling down and having what appeared to be a seizure drove me to drink in part because I'm terrified of having a seizure from withdrawal myself...I live alone, which adds to the fear.
However, I did some research on the net to find out what kind of risk category I fall into, which made me feel somewhat better. Yesterday, I started having 'tongue shocks' and brain zaps whenever I turned my head. So...I gave myself permission to take up to 2mg of Xanax (4 of my pills). As it turned out, I only needed to take 0.5 and the brain zaps didn't come back.
So. No seizure. Day 3. I feel like I've been hit by a truck, but no brain zaps today.