Hi Violet. It's so good to meet you.
I know what you mean about needing to talk to people who understand. Our 'normies' can't possibly get what we go through, even though some of them really try. I felt so much better about quitting when I found SR. I wasn't alone anymore.
I tested myself that way a few times. It always led me back to out of control drinking and danger. It took me a long time to finally get it. Sounds like you are ready. We're glad you're here.