You get to a point where you just don't care anymore....
So I just don't know how to do this! I was sober for almost 6 years and decided to try some "controlled drinking" last October. BAD IDEA!
Fast forward to today....and I can't go 3 days without drinking. I have watched several of my friends and family members die of alcoholism & during my 6 years of sobriety I would always think to myself "why? You have so much to live for! Your such an awesome person! If you only knew how great it is to be sober!" They died drinking and now I "get it"!
I swear every time I drink I tell myself it will be the last time. But then I get the most horrific craving ever and cave!"
I feel like I am in a dark hole. I feel like I am in quick sand. I feel like I'm never gonna get out!
I hate alcohol and everything it is doing to me & my life yet I keep doing it.
Feeling extremely depressed and hopeless...... :-(
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