Originally Posted by
drunkinnumber2 
Yet I still don't fully FEEL I'm an alcoholic, even though all the online tests say i probably am.
Does anyone actually ever accept 100% they are?
I found it tough to admit. Intellectually, I knew I had a serious problem, but deep down inside a part of me still believed I could figure out a way to control my drinking and not suffer any consequences.
Unfortunately, after literately hundreds of attempts and hundreds of failures, I realized it was impossible for me to just have a few drinks. I finally just gave in and said enough. I accepted that drinking was no longer an option. However, I don't label myself, rather I just see myself a person who no longer drinks.