Originally Posted by
Avice 
Drinking a non-alcoholic beer is a trigger for me. Putting non-alcoholic wine in a soup isn't. Does that make any sense?
Even if it makes sense, it's still an excuse. There are thousands of kinds of soup you can make that don't involve wine at all.
Bottom line you are in pretty heavy denial of your drinking Avice. You keep talking about relationships, health issues, diet, cooking, everything BUT drinking. The only solution is to stop drinking first - and then work on those other things later.