Originally Posted by Charlie117926

hello SR:

Just ranting here.

I have been off for a few days with traveling etc.

Also, we had a long weekend here in the USA, so I took advantage of it (in a good way.)

For quite sometime I have been ready to go and remain sober. For several days the goal seemed possible and then I fall. I give other's advice on this site yet I cant seem to follow it myself.

So over the weekend, I packed up some gear (in my backpack) set a course, in the wilderness and just went. No distractions, no texts, no nothing!

Just hiked, thought, reflected, sat, listened, looked, prayed, cried, slept and smiled. You name it, I did it. Just the land and myself.

I finally allowed myself to just get away and find time for myself and to concentrate on myself.

I have come back with a clearer more determined aspect of my sobriety and my responsibility to my family. Its odd when you pit yourself against nature (no it was not a dangerous "expedition") and have to rely on yourself (and compass) that things become clear (er.)

I must say that when I made it home I have a totally different outlook on my future than before I left.

I am no fool to think that I have this beat...yet, but I do feel stronger now than ever before. And yes I understand its easy not to drink when your alone in the middle of nowhere, but Its more than that. Something inside of me (a light bulb per say) came on and my thoughts have changed about myself and my life.

I am confident that this excursion was what I needed to set me on my life path when I left the woods.

Just wanted to share my story with everyone on here as SR is my family. Most of you know more personal things about me than the people that are supposed to be closest to me. Thanks for listening.