you made a stand and exposed her addiction. its that simple. you didn't just go along and let her get away with it any longer. you said NO.
it HAS to be your fault, in her mind, their minds, because if it isn't YOUR fault.....then it must be...........HERS. and none of them can allow that.
protect the addiction at all costs.
sounds like its the best thing for you to be out of that nightmare. never EVER again let anyone abuse you, not for one night, not ever.
I did not want to hurt her so i had no choice but to let her hurt me...
you had another choice....walk away, leave, remove yourself from the situation and the abuser. now, you don't have to worry about that. some very big life lessons for you!!!!