Originally Posted by
lostgirll 
not sure what to do. its not the first time this has happened either. ii pretty much suck at life right now
Well, believe me, it wasn't long ago that I also "sucked at life", big time. I won't blow smoke up your butt, it's not easy getting sober, and even when you do get sober, life doesn't turn into happy days, every day. But for me at least, I'm in a much better place sober than I ever was when I was actively drinking. I found the work and struggle to get sober well worth the effort.
My suggestion is to give the idea of sobriety some serious thought; I'm sure you deserve whatever good comes with sobriety.