Originally Posted by MIRecovery

Ambivalence

I've been to my physicals - We're you honest about your drinking?
***Yes, 100%
I'm going to my doctor and will be honest - You haven't done this yet
***I did go see a specialist but was refused treatment as I could not find anyone to sign for the medications. (I asked a number of people, including having my boyfriend show up for the appointment to get the medications only to be left at the doorstep when he ran away thinking he saw a car he recognized) But I do plan on seeing my family doctor as soon as I can get an appointment.
I'm going to an AA meeting - You haven't done this
***There is only one a week here, as soon as Tuesday night, 10:00pm arrives, consider it done
I make plans for drinking situations I can't avoid - In 5 years of sobriety there has never been a situation that I could not avoid. There has been some I choose to attend but none I had to go to.
***fair play. That said, I could choose not to go to a business lunch, but choose to instead for financial motivations.

The alcoholic views themselves through the eyes of their intentions the world views them through the eyes of their action's.

I believe you are serious about your recovery but it what we do that makes a difference not what we plan to do. I always view my actions through this filter. Is this action or inaction moving me toward sobriety or away.