Ambivalence
I've been to my physicals - We're you honest about your drinking?
I'm going to my doctor and will be honest - You haven't done this yet
I'm going to an AA meeting - You haven't done this
I make plans for drinking situations I can't avoid - In 5 years of sobriety there has never been a situation that I could not avoid. There has been some I choose to attend but none I had to go to.
The alcoholic views themselves through the eyes of their intentions the world views them through the eyes of their action's.
I believe you are serious about your recovery but it is what we do that makes a difference not what we plan to do. I always view my actions through this filter. Is this action or inaction moving me toward sobriety or away.