Thanks guys. You're right Normar, I think I used the fact I am in early days to laps. My AV saying to me I was not that bad with my drinking career, I was not drinking during the day or getting arrested. But the hell was the other symptoms and I know full well its a progressive illness which end us all up at rock bottom. I got arrogant and thought I needed the drink in order to function, when In fact because of the anxiety it caused me the next day, I could not function AT ALL! Then all the gastric symptoms coming back.....so NOT worth it. I THINK the first few days are always horrific and can only get worse if I choose to continue and stop, continue and stop. I read somewhere that people feel the detox gets worse if you have too many lapses.
Roll on Sunday afternoon. Planning a nice walk with my girls later. Bit of fresh air, well as fresh as it gets in London
. Thanks for your advice