Woodman, My heart hurts for you; I'm so sorry for your loss. I understand the pain and can only say that in time, it will ease - it truly does take time, so be very kind to yourself. If you are like me, in the dark hours before morning you may start thinking could I have done things differently. Please, please know that you absolutely did the best you could and you could not do anything to save her. I'm so very sorry. Keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers.