I can't make it on my own. I could never afford it. And my family would never accept it. Nor would my kids. I feel really lost. I'm not sure I'm ready to do that, plus with him, there's no second chance. I knew that when we got married. He wasn't an alcoholic then, and he was my best friend. So it was fine. But i knew right from the beginning, if one of us leaves or makes plans to leave, we'd best be serious because that would be it.