Originally Posted by jsm273

In March my wife kicked me out. Along with losing her I lost my stepdaughter and grandchild. I don't have children of my own. Alcohol was one of the contributing factors in the break-up. After that alcohol became everything. I was blacking out every night for about four and a half months. I was suicidal also. I finally just had enough and, found this website. It's gotten me through 30 days of sobriety. Thanks for the thread flynbuy. My av was screaming at me earlier. This thread got me thinking as to why it is I want to stop. Everything is back in perspective now. My av is gone.