July 3rd 2003. My first blackout. Up to that point I had been drinking heavily but would throw up if I pushed it that far. That morning I looked at what was left of a bottle and could believe I had drank that much or that I couldn't remember how I got from the bon fire to the couch. I knew something had changed and that I needed to quit. That was the last rational thought I had about drinking fro the next 10 years. Feb 10 2013 I believe I reached another tipping point. The point where I just didn't care anymore all I wanted to do was drink.