Originally Posted by
cakehat 
To me being "powerless" doesn't mean I leave it up to god or some higher power to help me. It means I really can't control alcohol over x amount of time, no matter how hard I try, so I use what power I do have, and it takes a **** ton, to just not drink. Its so unbelievably hard sometimes, but its not powerless.....it's finding the power you do have to recognize what situations you are powerless in: drinking.
I tried "just not drinking" and I know that for me ... it was mentally exhausting.
Plus, I wasn't really "present" to those around me, family, colleagues etc, I was locked up in my own battle, going on between my ears.
Lacing up the mental gloves on a daily basis to battle away with the drinking thoughts.
What if I told you ... it doesn't have to be like that ?