Originally Posted by
DoubleFelix 
is quitting drinking something you want to do? I couldn't tell from your post. Often times we want things to be different, but don't want to do what is required to create change.
Thanks for asking that question! Only recently I realized that I want to quit. For a long time I tried to make my life better through other ways. For example, I began exercising to get to a healthier weight and I lost 25 lbs. Those things only helped with certain narrow aspects of my life. I have now understood that the bigger issue is my drinking. Starting today I will be trying to quit.
However, I am afraid of what the evening will bring. I almost wish there weren't so many hours in the day. The hours I spend at work are not a problem because my mind is occupied by other things and besides I cannot drink in the office. After I come home, I will go cycling for two hours. But then after 8 or 9 pm come, I am afraid that I will again decide to have "just one drink". That's when it all starts. Ugh.