Hi and welcome Vic. So many of us here know what you are going through. You are not alone in this.
Congratulations on kicking both cigarettes and weed - to me that signifies you definitely have the ability to quit drinking - but is quitting drinking something you want to do? I couldn't tell from your post. Often times we want things to be different, but don't want to do what is required to create change.
You asked for us to tell you what you're doing is not good. Well, it's certainly not healthy - physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. We all have things we want and need out of life - are you decisions and actions in line with those wants and needs?
There is a lot of great advice for you here, my suggestion is to read it all with an open mind, multiple times if need be. Really think it over. Also, stick close to SR. We're here to help!
