Wow! Such honesty in this post. Thank you for sharing. Yes, the pendulum does swing and I, too, hate the lows.
So low, I feel like I don't matter, I feel like no matter what I do it won't count for anything
I've had this feeling before. It does suck. I know it isn't true, but it doesn't make the feeling go away. Like you said, though, it goes away eventually. I've learned to reach out quickly when I feel that "low" times coming and have a plan in place now.
I'm looking forward to hearing the plan you and rehab recruiter come up with. THAT is such a great step forward in committing to your recovery. We can do this together, DeliveryGuy.