Sorry, but your post does not sound like you are "getting away with it". Maybe you mean you aren't overtly getting fussed at by family members, but you are paying an even higher price....and by NO means getting away with it. It is the next step down toward the bottom.
That "wanting it enough" is a tough nut. My wanting sobriety would wax and wane. I didn't want it enough to do anything about it until suicidal thoughts entered the menu. Yep, I thought I was getting away with it, but it was rotting my soul. Finally, I wanted it more than ANYTHING. Once I got to that point, nothing was going to keep me from getting sober.
Glad you are here.