Drinking only makes that guilt and shame magnified. Getting some sober time will give your body a chance to get ride of alcohol and heal. Understand a lot of your emotions in early sobriety are the reeling effects of a chemical imbalance. I always hated that first few weeks (months) when I came back after relapses. Somehow before the relapse I failed to recall the pain and suffering of my last drunk. It's hard for newcomers to get enough physical sobriety so their emotional and mental sobriety can sink in. Be kind to yourself always, but especially in early sobriety.