The longer you go without drinking, the less need you will have to retreat. I am finding myself more engaged with other people than I have been in years- and it is not draining me like it used to. It's actually enjoyable and gives me energy.
My guilt was horrible, also. I had to let go of it and forgive myself, we can only go forward, right? For now, you need to do whatever you can to stay sober, but soon you will find that you WANT to be around your loved ones more. I was astonished at this development!
Forgive yourself. You are making a wonderful decision to be the best parent you can be. What's better than that?