He is trying hard to stop
hmmm, really? think you might be giving him a little too much credit there. it concerns me how he turns on you and makes it al your fault. it's not. you are in now way responsible for his drinking. he just uses you as yet another EXCUSE.
it's sad but him leaving is probably for the best. for you. we can only swim in the toxic stew for so long before we begin to flounder and drown. you are very young and this is a damaging unhealthy situation. just cuz we love people doesn't mean they are good for us.......