Thank you for all of your words.
I woke today feeling no better than yesterday. We still haven't spoken a word to each other, instead turning our backs to each other if we have to pass by one another. My heart is feeling very heavy. Everytime I see him or hear him pass close by, I tear up and breakdown when he can't her or see me. I don't want this to be it , I really don't. i want our happy ending. I don't mean to sound pathetic. You all generally have the hard attitude towards it (I do not mean any offence by this, I know everyone has a story, and experiences). He is all I have known gore all of my adult life, and his alcohol stuff is all I would change. Maybe Im naive.