Nice! Right there with you wrt Alanon. You'd think being 46 I'd have learned a few things about myself and how my personality works, turns out not so much..
I'm in the 4th step w/ sponsor now, going thru the Blueprint book- it'll be a long process.
But you (and the program) are right... things can improve. The marriage situation on the other hand will end up being what it ends up being.
So I know what you mean. Thanks for the update, c&c and I have often wondered how things were going w/ you.