I'm right behind you on my attempt, and I know I have a long way to go, but we're the same. Two people trying our best to not drink today.
May I suggest a shift in thinking? Maybe for an hour try not to think of sobriety as a punishment but more as a new lease on life & your marriage. If you have to, try writing down the benefits of being sober. Maybe tomorrow try it for 2 hours & so on. I'm not saying to go all Pollyanna on us & to never feel cruddy, but perhaps when you slowly start to shift your focus away from all of the "I can'ts" you'll discover something new about the world you never would've seen drunk.
Take what you like...leave the rest.