It is hard to know exactly why. I used to only drink on weekends and all week every time anything went wrong I'd think, "Can't wait to drink this away soon". I didn't know how I'd live without alcohol and yet I was sober and living without alcohol most the time.
Where did the lie come from, that alcohol would help with certain stuff it wasn't helping at all, and why is it so hard for alcohol addicts to get that lie out of their heads? That's what I can't understand.