To me the fact that you say you have been battling this for 2 years and to me that shows that despite maybe not being entirely successful, being sober is something you are wanting and you have not given up.
And I think thats good!
I found the key to my success with not drinking was distraction, keeping myself busy, monitoring how I felt.
The first month I had to work at being busy and I actively looked for things to do.
Sometimes if that meant even going for a drive in my car with my music on then thats what I did. I did all sorts too. I have a young daughter and I am single so often I would have to do things in the house as she was sleeping.
The worst thing for me was to slobbed in front on the telly thinking about drink.
Monitoring how I felt also included if I was craving a drink, I would eat or drink something sweet. If I was tired, I would just end my day as soon as I could and go to sleep.
I'm glad you are here. I'm glad you have started posting.
I wish you the best xx