Hobbers congrats on 10 days thats awesome! Yeah I definitely do need help. I'm starting to recently wake up and discover bottles I hid that are empty in the mornings. Its a sickening feeling not even remember hiding them there.
I'm a little reluctant to see a Dr. I know its the best course of action but I usually can not drink for a few days and be "ok" so I don't think I will experience severe withdrawal.
I actually am very interested in computer programming I think I may start to study for that or look into some evening classes so I can control my urges. That's a great suggestion thanks Jennie.