NuuDawn, I don't know if this will be helpful for you, but it helps me to know that nothing going on around me has anything to do with my sobriety. I just don't drink. doesn't matter what else is happening, it has nothing to do with my sobriety. Somehow, I always make it through. And usually I don't even have to hide the bodies much any more. LOL
Seriously, I came to realize that Life happens, I continue forward. We've worked too hard to give up now.
love from Lenina