Oh wow do I get this. I have said to myself AND to AH multiple times that I wish he would just cheat on me or hit me, that it would make my life so much easier. I put up with it this long because I was taught that divorce is usually never an option. The only reason I haven't contacted an attorney at this point is because he's agreed to rehab but I am also trying to be real with my expectations. I can't and won't live like this again. If he blows this, I'm done. For real this time.