Day 7 of being opiate free. .. then a guy I know swung by and repaid me the 3 pills I loaned him a few weeks ago. I haven't taken any of them... I don't plan to take any. .. but I Want to take 1... It was a long busy weekend and I hurt. .. I know I could get my house back in order so much easier if I took 1 pill. But then why would I stop at that 1? I would have 2 more. .. then it would be just 3 pills. ... then what? I need to keep thinking of the ultimate goal. .. it's not just 1 pill. .. It will never again just be one pill and I need to recognize that. I read a quote on a different forum that stood out to me. ...
We are all pickles. . We can never be cucumbers again.
I have to remember that I will never be able to go back to just 1... it's never just 1. I am a pickle. .. no matter how much I want to believe I am a cucumber I will always be a pickle.
Sorry to just drop in the middle of your group....