It's hard to remember a sober day at this point, where I wasn't coming down off of something or hungover, planning to drink more. I know that my worst sober days will be better than my best drunk days because the drinking at a certain point was just hurting myself. Yeah I had "fun" on some of those days, but I don't know if it was fun or I just got off on ignoring all the s*** I didn't want to deal with. That's not real fun at all