I am ashamed to say it but I caved yesterday, I think I knew I would all along.
I also see a few us are having to start over, but I say this to those who are sticking it out, please don't think it's ok, you can just start again the next day.
After 8 hours sleep I have still woke feeling ashamed, depressed, full of regret. My insides are hanging on by a thread, dehydrated, headache, stinking breath my tongue is coated with alcohol and nicotine, my eyes are red and my skin is grey. The worst has to be the PARANOIA who did I upset? what did I say ? I can remember everything I never done anything but still worry about what people think. I have already made one apologetic text explaining why I left so abruptly.
It is never worth it!!!!
Where do I go from here? No idea
