Hey, there. I am so glad you chose to be so brave as to take the mask off.
I was really scared of and against the anti-psychotics too. I said I would never take them.
So here I am on a fairly high dose on one now.
It hasn't cured all my symptoms but it has done me far more good and more broadly across my symptom spectrum than I could have imagined.
Plus, I sleep like a dream.
I take 3 other meds too.
So, I can definitivitly (SP?) tell you that it is not the end. ok?
My life isn't easy, but it's easier. Most importantly I am not a danger to myself anymore.
My voices are not the same as yours, mine are intrusive, persistent, non-stop internal repititions of the single word suicide and it goes on and on all night long while I pace the floor begging it to stop and let me sleep. (bipolar mixed episode is what it's called.)
That has been completely cured!!!!
So please go get yourself the help you deserve.
You can get time off with FMLA.