I think you have to do whats best for you in the long term, health wise, and to me it seems like you are doing just that. Living a lie will not last and the best thing for you is to resolve your health issues first and let the rest take care of itself. I do believe that your anxiety will improve and you will learn to manage them down the line. I can't speak from experience on the same issue, but I think you kno whats best for you. Stay strong and optimistic !