Hello. I'm back again. Day 3 or 4. I got my depression meds adjusted a few weeks ago and I am feeling more emotionally stable. And I finally got my dr to prescribe antabuse. I just want the drinking to stop. Antabuse will give provide a much needed buffer when feel upset and want to drink. Now I need to continue working through the emotional baggage. I don't think I will ever experience happiness again but I will settle for a sense of peace and calmness.