I haven't been on for a week or so and saw that this thread had been resurrected. It was kind of timely, quite frankly, because I was really feeling convicted that I needed to get a handle on things and get a budget started, etc.
So, I felt very convicted to the point of tears to where I wrote an email to my RAH that I was sorry for my spending, that I am nearly caught up on paying off most things (a few hundred here and there), and that I am looking into budgeting and revamping our finances. I told him that if that makes him uncomfortable than he is welcome to step in and I told him that I speak to my sponsor on a regular basis about this and we discuss accountability and how I'm doing with this responsibility. I have no idea how he'll take it nor do I care, it just felt like a huge weight had been lifted the minute I hit the send button.