I hummed and haaa d at this post, i know i should not ask, and i dont want to hurt you...but i gotta ask
whats with your guilt? what do you feel guilty for?
it seems to me you have alot of guilt when it comes to him...why?
***i am sorry if this is a stupid question but my mom has guilt with me...(she has lots..)we talk alot, now that i am in AL ANON. I told my mom, i am fine, if it wasnt for what BACK BONE she had with me growing up...i would not survive my husbands death...i am a strond, independent woman...mom thinks she was too hard on me and not ENOUGH on my brother....[part of my drunks in her family] this is part of my story of the As in my life***