I have been convicted of 2 DUI's and went to jail for the second one. Yes I totally deserved it. I am very very grateful I didn't hurt any innocent people, and it is a relief I currently don't have a license, and I don't want one again until I can trust myself 110%. However, before both DUI's I knew it was going to happen, I had a gut feeling. If I could go back in time and LISTEN to that feeling and sober and smarten up before the first one, I would. Sounds like you may be having the same feeling. Listen to it! And get some help for yourself.