Thank you. I hope and pray it will get better. I've always been the type to want everything fixed "right now" . Of course I know that's not possible, but I feel like I'm finally waking up to process and grieve over all the fallout from my addiction. I am fortunately not in danger, there are n other addicts in my life, I started this ride all on my own because I couldn't cope with unrelenting stress. Even after the biggest issues were resolved, the aftershocks from the fallout and destruction kept me going back to alcohol.
Now, without alcohol, I am really feeling the grief.