First time I drank as a young teen, i drank so much I blacked out , had to be dragged home and didnt remember what had happened.
I continued drinking for the next thirty or so , at various levels of abuse. Last year at 47 I decided to quit for good, although there were times in the past when I wanted to quit and would stop for different periods, but then resumed drinking.
Last year the progressiveness of alcohol abuse was ramping up, started experiencing frequent and strong bouts of anxiety that was different then the past. To quell the anxiety I started drinking in the mornings , that was different too , and frightening. swore I would never do that.
Stumbled on SR and saw references to RR and AVRT, read the material and it really resonated with me. Fully acknowledged to myself that alcohol was a huge problem for me and resolved to never drink again.