Originally Posted by
idledreamer 
After I post this message, I'm driving to my ABF's apartment and breaking up with him. I've come up with many answers to a dozen different scenarios so that I stay strong. I've thought of many different ways to go about it. I'm sure it may all change the second I step through his door, but I'm not giving in to him. I'm not staying because he "needs me". I have to leave for me.
It's my first real breakup with my first love. So I may be slightly dramatic about this, but my anxiety almost gave me a panic attack today at work. I can't keep living like this, feeling guilty and angry and horrible. I want to move on with my life.
Here's to being strong (for the moment).
I wish you the best, do you really need to drive over there and do this, can you just do no contact, or a phone call, and say stay the h3ll out of my life?
I know you are strong, so do what you need to do. Here for you.
(((((((((hugs)))))))))))