We all go through the worry. I will tell you that I went no contact for a while, then allowed only text and email. Here's the thing...I found out six months later all of the stuff that my AXH was actually doing. He's lucky to be alive, but all indications point to still using. So really if you broke down and had contact, as in my case, you don't get the truth anyway. Then you are met with nastiness all over again if you confront them on the lies. It isn't any easier a year later when they get nasty with you either. No contact is the best way to go. Focus on healthy things for yourself, do things that distract you. We all worry, it's only natural, but it is out of our hands.