Day 21 - Nearly Relapsed Tonight
Fridays are by far always my most difficult day. However, this afternoon at work I was completely content and set on giving up and having no desire to remain sober anymore. However - I decided to delay my urge by going home first to decide if this is something that I really wanted to do. When I got back to my apartment, I still had a VERY strong urge to drink and still sort of had my mind made up that I would go out tonight. However, I decided to take a nap first. However, now that I have woken up from my nap - my strong cravings have went away and I know I will be fine.
I feel mixed emotions now - part of me feels disturbed that earlier I had completely given up (in a pre-meditated sort of way), but part of me feels at least I "survived another day".