It's got you on the ropes J. It definitely did not want you at that meeting today.
Maybe it's time to give it all you've got and go for an inpatient programme.
It might give you the head start you need.
as for not posting here because it's disrespectful...thats your addiction too - and shame and self disgust and everything else that makes it easier to buy more grog to forget it all.
I lost myself in a moment...the slippery slide just picked up speed and before I knew it I'd lost my job my old life and 5 years of my life...5 years of daily drinking.
You have a chance still to apply the brakes Life.
If we could do it for you there'd be 50 pairs of March hands pulling on the brake...but noone else can do that but you J.
give inpatient some thought.
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