Thank you OP. I needed to read your thread and some of the responses.
Blackouts were truly terrible for me. Usually accidents and problems for myself rather than others. I am thankful to be alive. And then I was aware of them and came home before they would happen, so at least I was on my own when I blacked out.
Thinking about this has truly shocked me and banished cravings this evening.
Thank you for helping me stay sober today